OK, I made it. Today is the last day of this little experiment gone awry. If you haven’t been following along, you may want to go back to the beginning.
As of this morning, I am down six pounds from where I started. A far cry from the 10 I was planning, but not too bad. I should add here that I do not trust the scale at the gym anymore, so all of those numbers must be taken with a grain of salt. Which I can do, because my blood pressure is OK. I’m trying to embrace the positives here.
So, maybe I did drop 10 pounds. Maybe I dropped two. Maybe I gained weight, but now I’m more muscular. Maybe my weight doesn’t matter as much as how I feel. Unfortunately, I’m not sure how I feel at this point.
I don’t feel like my health has improved because of this. My back doesn’t feel any better. I do feel like my diet is healthier, and in the long term, maybe that’s enough. I’m still hungry a lot, but I feel like I fill up a little more easily now. My clothes feel a little looser, which is probably the most obvious indication of progress I have at the moment.
I managed to identify a few problem foods that are worse for me than I realized. The worst are tortillas, which are involved in so many of my favorite foods. I must go on a hunt for lighter, healthier tortilla alternatives. “Tortilla Alternatives” is fun to say. Try it. Go ahead, say it out loud. See?
On a happier note, I identified plenty of foods that aren’t all that bad. Turkey of course… I knew that was pretty healthy, but I didn’t realize HOW healthy until I started looking at everything. And it’s one of my favorites.
So, I still have a long way to go. I figure I need to drop about 20 more pounds to get to a comfortable place where I don’t feel so fat, I can take a little pressure off my spine and maybe have enough energy to stay active. That said, I’m really going to make an effort not to get too hung up on numbers. I really want to judge this based on how I feel, not what the scale tells me. That won’t be easy, but I can try.
I think I will need another round of steroid injections in my spine before too much longer. The previous batch did the trick for eight months or so. I’m hopeful that if I keep dropping weight, they will remain effective longer. I’m also hopeful that another round might make it possible for me to ride my bike again, which could do really great things for me physically and mentally.
I’m struggling to remain hopeful. Some days that’s easier than others. But as long as there’s hope, I can keep going. My wife calls it dedicated or committed. I call it stubborn. Either way, I’m not giving up yet.
Weight: 230 lbs
Exercise: 1/2 km swimming.
Intake: 2065 calories. I most certainly reached the 50 grams of fat, but also probably a decent portion of protein, all without hitting the 2200 calories.
What I ate today: Banana, raisins, yogurt, cereal, peach, coffee, turkey bacon wrap, chips and beer.